Shore Time

Woke up with thoughts and images of just letting myself float gently with the current, back to the shore...along with lots of "debris" from the past that has washed up there...rather than rowing so desperately away from the shore...the past...the place I fear means going backwards or missing out on WHAT'S OUT THERE...I can actually feel myself just letting the waves take me ashore, and just lying there in the sand, not getting up, but trusting that right where I landed is perfectly okay for now...Just lie there...Don't be afraid of what might wash ashore with you...memories I've tried not to remember, thoughts I have tried to not think, feelings I've tried to not feel...They are just pieces of the past...none of them can hurt me...in fact, when I see them now, think them now, remember them now, feel them now, I am doing so with different eyes...in a different spirit...in a new frame of mind...in retrospect...with love and understanding I couldn't have had "back then"...

Let them come...Just lie there...You'll know when you're ready to get up and move on down the beach with expectation, anticipation, and energy for "next"...Right now, though, it's okay to just lie there like a beached whale, helpless to do anything but lie there, knowing that "Help" is on its way, and you will be revived, in time, to get back in the water and "PLAY" again, perhaps in new waters...Who knows?And "Who" can always be trusted.