I go to the monthly Rockin'Box 33 house concerts
because, inevitably, there is a song waiting there for me,
a song exactly right for this point on my journey.
The song Broken Crown is one that David Berkeley sang Sunday night.
I cried as he sang,
but I didn't truly know why until I listened to it again and again
on my drive from Abilene back to Lubbock yesterday.
Why, it's from Rob!
David Berkeley was channelling "my Rob" in this song.
The words tell the story of brokenness,
a desire for someone to make it beautiful (in her way)
and the greater desire not to bring her down in the process.
I just knew I had to be at that concert Sunday night,
and now I know why.
I am so grateful for Rob's delight in me...
his belief in my nature to see hope and transformation
when he couldn't...
and his wisdom in knowing that
this "broken crown" was not one I could...or should...try to "fix".
It would bring us both down.
I believe more and more,
with my whole heart,
that Rob knew,
and he released us both from trying to fix
this unfixable "broken crown"
in the only way he could.
What love!
I'm claiming it big time today!!
And I'm also hearing his invitation, his urging me to
"sing that old tune" of mine again.
Maybe it's time.
I am so thankful for you, Babe,
and I love and miss you.